more than a talking potato

nikatabulas

Eto ha. May crazy idea ako. bago ka magreact basahin mo muna lahat.

Naisip ko kasi gumawa ng libro o nobela tungkol sa buhay ko. Kaso naisip ko, maganda kung magtutulungan tayong dalawa to make one single book. Imemerge natin xa, i think i need you to join up with me to make this book possible kasi my idea circles around the both of us. This is mere business related and profit, at career! Nasasayangan ako sa idea eh. At ang ganda kasi ng naiisip ko. Let's make a book about our lives. That way it would be easier, kasi look. whats more easier than making a book out of our own lives? Wala ng ibang mas nakakaalam ng storya ng buhay natin kundisarili natin mismo, at tamo kung iisipin, kung may personal touch ang lahat ng storya,  mas magiging heart felt yung kinalabasan. You see, lahat naman ng buhay ng tao interesting, at lalo na yung iyo! at parang mailalabas narin natin ang ating sama na loob, and otherstrong emotions like our aspirations, happiness, gratitude, ang ating passion o kahit ano mang nais mo sabihin sa mundo.

This is wierd pero nakaisip nako ng title ng book. It's 07. un ang title. '07. eto ay tungkol sa year nato. Lahat ng mangyayare sa taon nato yun ang main idea ng book. At diba? i hate to bring this up, but nov 07 tayo huling nagkita? bsta madami pang dahilan bakit 07. you change it if you like. Isip ka pa ng title. or ng reason why 07 ang title. Medyo parang 007 (double 07, pero hindi naman mukhang spoof ayt? atsaka oh oh.iv got another idea. pwedengdouble 07 den kasi dalawa tayo. ewan) bsta xmpre idea proposal pa lagn to. Isip ka ng mas maganda kung ayaw mo.

The main point of this is that makuha yung POV mo sa story. Maganda kung parang diary xa, tipong 1st person yung gamit sa pagsusulat, magshishift sakin tapos sayo, parehong 1st person naration pero magkaibang tao. Madami kasing kakaibang pangyayare ang buhay ko ngayung 07, grabe ha, 2months plang ang nagdaan pero andami na nangyare.. at kahit hindi ko man aminen, i think subconsciously, isa sa mga dahilan bakit ko nagawa ang mga bagay na nagawa ko this past two months ay ikaw. kaya asteeg tlg kung makakakuha din ako ng side mo. And kasi, ang ganda rin kasi ng storya ng buhay mo. I was even planning to make a book of my own, iimaginin ko nlng ang side mo, pero xmpre iibahin ko ang pngalan ng characters. Pero kasi, diba! yung exact places na napuntahan mo hindi ko alam kaya mahihirapan ako. at! Maganda tlg pag ikaw ang nagsulat ng sarili mong story.

Eto.I havent started anything yet ha. pero ill give you an overview of what i forsee of me writing.

Xmpre, may part dun na mapapasok ka sa story ko. Like... ay! jan 07 pla ngaun, kamusta na kaya si frank? (we could make it in english language if you like, actually gusto ko nga ng english) then... i hate to bring this up again, kasama xmpre yung confusion ko.. kung 'alam mo na nga' ba talaga kita? Or are mxdo lang akong attached sayo, so stupid to make few friendskaya parang end of the world nung nawala ka. then the usual naration of my life. sa st.scho, xmpre kasama yungmga clasm8s ko sa st.scho sa story. at mga other people pa na part na ng life ko the past 2years na hindi tayo OK. and then, it would shift to you.... your life right now. What you really feel, pwede mong sabihin na.... PUTANG INA TLG UNG NIKA NA yun. buti nlng wala na xa sa buhay ko. or something like that! Maganda yun. may impact.Magkaiba ang side s natin. Kung ako, gustong gusto ko na makipagbati, which my inner self tells me... ikaw naman yung kabalakitaran ng emotions ko. See? the audience or may i say the readers would feel the contradictory between the feelings of the two characters. Or bahala ka. whatever you want to say about me.Remember: your story is not highlighted on how you think about me, but rather, with what is happening in your life right now.  Pero xmpre from time to time, you'll say something about me in the story kasi nga whats the point of making it into a double 1stperson POVs kung wala naman plang relationship or link yung dalawang characters of the story? kailangan meron talga. kahit na sasabihin mo lang na... buti wala na xa. or grabe hindi ako makapaniwala na..... bsta, bahala ka na.

At xmpre. Kasama na to sa story. Yung CRAZY idea proposition ko. pwede nga na ang storya ay umiikot sa book making process. Or whatever. medyo vague pa nga yung idea kasi nga, diko pa nakukuha yung side mo. Bsta, eto lang since the title is 007, or 07, dapat matatapos ang naration ng story naten ng dec 31 07. maganda ren kung magsimula ang storya naten ng jan1 07, or dec 31 06. bsta bahala ka na. tandaan mo nlng mga nagyare sa araw na yun sa buhay mo. kung may diary ka ba na kinikeep na may entry sa day na yun, starting jan 01-to hte present time, malaking help yun. Actually pwede pa nga kait hindi exacto, bsta ihighlight mo nlng yung mga COOL and BIZARE happenings ng buhay mo. Flashbacking out of the year 2007 is naturally allowed. Pero nga.. ang mangyaayre flashbacks na xa. OK? flashbacks enriches the story eh. Explains alot of the present naration. Bsta. alam mo na yun.Ang masay nito, is like, we dont know whats gonna be of our story. Kasi parang we are making a story of our life everyday, ang kinalabasan ngnovel na ito ay depende sa mangayayre sa taon na to. GETS? so its really a crazy IDEA. pero xmpre kung gusto mo ma embelish para sa ikakaganda ng story mo, ko lang. pero mas maganda tlg kung HONEST ang isusulat mo dun.

 PLEASE tHINK IT OVER. kilala mo si BOB ONG AYT? at yung mga writers na hindi gingmit ang tunay nilang pngalan. pwede tayong mgpangap na isang tao lang ang ngsulat nun tapos under a code name pa. O diba? wierd. controversial. paguuspan, tipong mapapaisip ang mga tao kung true life stroy ba yun o hindi. Yun ang isang major point of my crazy idea. KAKAIBA at out of the ordianry kaya tyak paguuspaan. we can take benefit out of this, like parang shock absorber nren ang pgsusualt nato xe diary like eh. And. we could have greater focus of our dreams. pwede mong isulat dun ang mga pangarap mo. at pano mo gusto matupad yun. isa yun sa highlight ng POV naration ko eh.

I know you are wierded by the idea. pero please think it over. Kung hindi ka papayag, itutuloy ko paren, xmpre iibahin ko ang mgq pangalan natin at wala nakong magagawa kundi imaginin ang side mo. :p pero mas mganda tlg pag ikaw kasi ikaw yun. Kasi nman yung story kung turn out to be about friendship. about dreams. memories. whatever. just like what i had said a while ago,a ng kinalabasan nito ay dpende narin sa mangyayare sa buhay natin sa taon nato.

Think this over. This is actually first of the kind. Wala pang nakakaisip nito. YUng idea na two writers mergin in to one, tapos ongoing yung writing dpende sa mangayayre sa buhay nila. The truth is, we could even make and invent a new kind of writing style/genre/kind kasi hindi naman xa biography diba. At kasi ang biography parang isusulat mo na ang nagyare na. pero tao. the story goes with the life of the writer. Bsta sana maintindhan mo.

If this is succesful. pwede tayong maging renaisance person. Tipong makabagong geniuses. Parang si shakespeare. BSTA!

again let me tell you this.

THINK THIS OVER! AT GUSTONG GUSTO KO TLG MATULOY TO.... AS IN. PERO WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. ITUTULOY KO PAREN TO, grabe, nahyhyper ako pag pumayag ka! Imaginin mo. wala ka dito, as in different part of the world ang agwat o layo natin. tapos mkkpgcome up tayo ng story! BSTA! IMAGININ MO!

PLease. think it over. email me, imesage m ko sa friendster. or wherever.

emails ko:

emailninek@yahoo.com

YM

nikazelithlayson@yahoo.com

telephone number (kapal as if tatawagan moko)

0465170328

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE Im counting on you.

BTW. may sinusulat din akong bok\ok ngaun na fantasy. iknow na ikaw din. kung feeling mo pandagdag lang to sa dalahin mo, ok lang. pero kasi diba you could do naman two at the same time! At napakadali langisulat ng idea ko. you could even talk about your fantasy book on our book. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

We could change the world esteph. Hahahaha. grabe ang optimistic ko ha!

Last words: I'm counting on YOU. PLEASE THINK IT OVER. it dosent mean naman na you woudl talk to me, or babalik na ang dati nating samahan. This is simply a career move. We could be back on being friends or not. Bsta. hirap iexplain kasi nga vague pa at blurry ang lahat. help me to gain and generate more ideas about this. PLEASE PUMAYAG KA! Sayang kasi eh!

PLEASE THINK IT OVER. :p

nikatabulas

Finally.

       You had gone away. I know you will eventually do so, but an unexpected confirmation from a friend made my life turn into a 360 degree turn. I just hope they never told me. I think it is better if i know you are gone but not with the exactness of datas. Heck, just one text of confirmation, where in for the first time, was not initiated by me, a friend told me you had gone away. And that broke the ice. I then become hysterical again, repetetive questions streamed to my head once again. Me, another nut-case scenario.

      Imagine a movie scene where a sudden txt message was received by the major character... a very important message. Everything suddenly stops then slowly life comes back again into a very slow manner. I felt betrayed, felt sad, felt final. I felt lonely, i thought i could stand it already after almost two years of doomed silence from your side. But hell, i was wrong. I wailed and cried like the very first time you went away. Like the very first time. Seems like i never grew. Seems like i never change. Just when i thought i was stronger enough. Just when i though the pain you inflicted made me wiser. Just when i thought I already let you go... was also the time i want you back, also the time when everything is too late. Too godamn late.

I love you. I just hope you know how much i cried. How much i hide my tears literally. No one understood. Not even you. Not even me. I never thought love is such a complicated problem. The next time, ill make sure i will never be hurt again, thats why im doubting there would be even a next. I hope ill find someone other than you. I just wonder if ill see you again. I will wonder everyday until wonder turns to wonders. WOnder as in big thing. BAKA. im bluffing again. gibbering gabbering.

I hope you loved me to.

But i think ill never know the answer.

I know you never did.

Im just stupid.

nikatabulas

Damn frustrations. Damn holding back, specially emotions. Damn confusion. Damn reality, and damn all the situation that makes up this structure, whether it exist or just merely fraud. Damn life, damn you, and most of all, i hate to say this but- Damn me.

KILL ME BEFORE I KILL YOU.

nikatabulas

tapos ko na yung fifth mountain. 3weeks ko ata bnasa yun kaya namnam na namnam. ngaun tuesday with morrie naman. Grabe yung the fifth mountain... it convinced me to move on. GRABE! ang hiwaga tlg ni paulo coelho. ciao

nikatabulas

im in the library again.

 I am happy to bump in to a friend that is not already my classmate, HAZEL! we catched up with our lives talking in the library.. and we joined in the star newspaper contest, hahahah! sino kaya mananalo samin ng celpon? Ahihihi.

 vagina monologues..

my literary editor told me to research about this, and hell.. i was dumbstruck. ciao